Day13

Happy Mother's Day !!!!!

I woke up to the smell of blueberry pancakes with maple syrup, banana and cream yum Mel had cooked breakfast for us all.

I am feeling good at the moment it feels good. I did get a bit pissed with Tony today he really frustrates me at time. I finished my blanket last night so I need more wool because I find it very therapudic but he said no and I got angry with him but in the end I got my wool but I shouldn't have had to fight for it.

I am trying to keep myself busy so that going off my meds will be easier and knitting helps but he just doesn't understand that because he isn't going through it in the same way I am.

I had strange dreams again it involve T for some of it and the CS and then the other one was about my mum and we were arguing again over broken promises it is weird the dreams that I am having they are about people I know at the moment instead of strangers who knows what they mean but sometimes I wish I did but maybe it is just my sub conscience working overtime.

I have councilling tomorrow so I am looking forward to that to get a few things out but I am feeling positive about my eating at the moment the binge instinct is less and less and I feel so good about that.