Day 16

Omg the dream I had last night was so out there something totally different to what I normally and I have had some real out there dreams. I dreamt that I was sentanced to death and had to have an injection to kill me and I went through heaps leading up to my life ending I can't explain it all but basically once I was dead I came back to Tony which was unexpected but I was so pleased to be back with him. Then the strange part is when people saw me their reactions were weird as if they didn't care and my mum was one of the people that just dropped my kids of and left. I have no idea what was going on or what it means.

When I did wake up I had a headache and I am feeling really stiff and tired today my body just doesn't want to work which sux cause I have been feeling so good lately but it's all good I just have to take oneday at a time and it's a step forward not backwards positive thinking is all good and if it means I have a quiet day then thats what I will do no pressure to do anything until I start to feel better.

UPDATE

Still feeling yuck and I did emotional eat today it wasn't nice but with the way I was feeling it just happened.

To make my day worse the real estate agent as arranged 3 open homes for the weekend and I am pissed because he said 1 and now it makes it all real people will be coming into my home and invading my space and I am not comfortable with it but what can I do nothing I just have to accept it and move on from it. This is just what has to happen and I have to stop letting it get to me all the time.