Day 12

I am happy and it feels good to be able to say that :)

I had a pretty intense dream this morning and it involved a lot of people I know and don't know and my grandfather who has passed away it was weird but I couldn't wake up from it it was so hard but I was pleased once I was awake and realised it was a dream.

I had a good day today and did some crafting and tonight I finished my blanket. We also watched some dvd's today and just had a lazy day.

I weighed this morning and lost 600g this week and I am thrilled I am sending my diary to J every night which does help me a lot I like being accountable to someone other than myself.

I have been thinking a bit about my triggers and what they could be and I think one of them is my mother and as horrible as it sounds I haven't spoken to her in 2 days since our big fight and I have had two good days. I feel bad about that but you know sometimes you just need your mum but when I turn to mine it always ends up being a negative thing so I have to do what is best for me and what is healthy for me. I can't talk to my mother about what I am going through because she just doesn't get it but that is just her.